so far so good

so i finally figured out how to hook up the wireless connection on my laptop here. the school is so old that it took me forever to figure out where everything went (also i am not tech savvy at all).  i like most of my classes, my room has an amazing view of the beach by our school (thats right its on the beach, how amazing is that?) my room mate (Alex) is completely bizarre but i really like her. 

the train ride up here was quite interesting. i met this girl Rose who is like a human solar panel; she soaks up the suns energy and can release it through beams of light. i haven't seen Ian that much since i've been here because his room is on the other side of campus and we have no classes together (not even lunch). the school did that on purpose because they want us to meet new people. 

for p.e. i'm taking a martial arts class, and i think i'm doing pretty well. although i don't know how anyone in that class can concentrate around Professor Dillon (he looks like a sculpture crafted by the gods). 

fingers crossed

so i'm heading off to the "special" school tomorrow and i still have so much packing to do. i had no idea that i had this much stuff. i think i have a good feeling about tomorrow. i've always liked traveling and we get to take an express train there. i wonder if this is how harry potter felt. i've been feeling alot like him and his friends these days.

new leaf

what the hell is wrong with me? i'm not a whinny person. my life is drastically different now, so what? it wasn't amazing in the first place. maybe going to this special school could be a good thing after all. i can finally get away from my stupid so-called friends and make new non-backstabbing ones. and it's not like i'm completely alone in this saga i have Ian (twin brother) to go through it with me. i mean i've been complaining about how awful my life is and i haven't even thought about him. he actually had a pretty nice life (good friends, good grades, everybody liked him). and i've always been kind of an outcast that never cared what anyone thought about me. why should this one incident change the way i see everything. i was starting to become another person. and i don't particularly care for her. so life is gonna be different. that doesn't mean that life's gonna be awful. . . right?

clarification

as to the non-back stabbing friends comment in the previous blog post.

i had what i thought was a really close friend and she told everyone my secrets and spread nasty rumors and turned into this villain that i thought only existed in movies.

yep thats it

the plot thickens

today i found out that i am now not only a super freak but i cant stay with my family. my brother and i have to go away to a "special school" where we will be "trained by professionals" to use our "gifts." i just want to find a scientist, make him or her build me a time machine, and go back to when i had non-back stabbing friends and life was simple. 

thats not even the worst part. apparently i'm adopted as well. because this "gift" is apparently genetic and guess who doesn't have it my apparently non-biological parents. what part of m life isn't going to change. ggggrrrrr . . . 

ignorance is bliss

life has become a bit more difficult lately, ever since what will hence forth be known as "the incident." people who i thought were my friends are suddenly terrified of me. they don't understand. who am i kidding? how can i be upset with them for not understanding when i can't even understand what is happening to me? life was so much easier when i never knew what was out there.  i get that it is supposed to be an honor to be part of the chosen but is it so awful to want to go back to my old life when my biggest problem was should i go to prom or not?

at least i don't have to be alone Ian (my twin brother) is with me. but he seems excited and eager to embark on the next chapter in our lives. why can't i think like that? why don't i feel the same way? why can't i choose a world to fit into? all i want is for time to stop and for me to be able to travel back to a time when i had no idea what was really out there. to be able to think that the things that go bump in the night weren't real. to not have this great responsibility suddenly thrust upon me. to be completely honest i don't think they chose the right girl for this.