clarification

as to the non-back stabbing friends comment in the previous blog post.

i had what i thought was a really close friend and she told everyone my secrets and spread nasty rumors and turned into this villain that i thought only existed in movies.

yep thats it

the plot thickens

today i found out that i am now not only a super freak but i cant stay with my family. my brother and i have to go away to a "special school" where we will be "trained by professionals" to use our "gifts." i just want to find a scientist, make him or her build me a time machine, and go back to when i had non-back stabbing friends and life was simple. 

thats not even the worst part. apparently i'm adopted as well. because this "gift" is apparently genetic and guess who doesn't have it my apparently non-biological parents. what part of m life isn't going to change. ggggrrrrr . . . 

ignorance is bliss

life has become a bit more difficult lately, ever since what will hence forth be known as "the incident." people who i thought were my friends are suddenly terrified of me. they don't understand. who am i kidding? how can i be upset with them for not understanding when i can't even understand what is happening to me? life was so much easier when i never knew what was out there.  i get that it is supposed to be an honor to be part of the chosen but is it so awful to want to go back to my old life when my biggest problem was should i go to prom or not?

at least i don't have to be alone Ian (my twin brother) is with me. but he seems excited and eager to embark on the next chapter in our lives. why can't i think like that? why don't i feel the same way? why can't i choose a world to fit into? all i want is for time to stop and for me to be able to travel back to a time when i had no idea what was really out there. to be able to think that the things that go bump in the night weren't real. to not have this great responsibility suddenly thrust upon me. to be completely honest i don't think they chose the right girl for this.